I'm stupid more than I thought

It takes courage and humility to accept you are wrong to the things you thought you were right. It is a fucking cognitive dissonace,
It is self inflicting paradox, I just haven't realized this thing as I grew older I should have known better and do better. As I get older
and death is waving at me from afar, I just feel regret in many things, and say cliche things, you know.
I should decide to break this bad habit of mine, that I am too slow, that I scrutinize things or overthink I acquired this habit in my mid 20s
'cause when I was younger I tend to believe things right away when I was in my teens, I was 19 that time I didn't grew up in good neigborhood
I let's say was not in the good crowd and then I decided to get rid of it, I am grateful it helped me a lot. And decide to associate myself
to a better crowd. It is like a school there is no perfect school, they have their own pros and cons.

I should decide when I think it's better because at the end of the day it's my life, I should know it better than anyone else.