The War in Middle East

 This is the new thing today the war between Israel/U.S. and Iran, the oil supply disrupted because the Sraight of Hormuz happens to be in the IRAN territory the prices of all goods are getting high. The oil prices getting high day by day. Inflation in inevitable. Our future?  I don't know the tomorrow will bring. I just know there is war and it is ugly in both nations special in civilian populance.

He is gone for good and will never come back

    He had 86 summers. All I can say this person is always trying to grasp what is good in you, and never fails to do that.

    

Just like everyone else he has infirmities, he was not a perfect person,  but this time I give this to him, he is more Christian more than he thought was more forgiving than he thought what ever you did bad things against his person, still looking for and hoping for good in you.

    He is misunderstood and was having these eccentricities, this personality was more recognized and highlighted. I have seen the hopelessness in him and crying for help, but I chose to ignore it.

That is way I am having these thousands of guilts and regrets.

I don't think how much longer I  feel this agony.

Take things for granted

This is an old saying or we just called it a fucking cliché, we just take things for granted...until it happens, the inevitable — the lost, the defeat and the death.

Those things are always certain whoever fucking you are. The universe gives you many chances until it is enough for you to experience these painful things. That's it. Meow meow.

Hypocrisy: Extreme lying

Hypocrisy: Extreme lying

 The highest form of lying could be is hypocrisy, why am I saying this?  Because there are people can say good thing and virtues but doing the opposite thing, They seem knowing good

Virtues and morality with profound explanation, but never acts those, It is just talking the talk and never walk the talk, never practice what is being preached it is lying and hypocrisy in a higher form I could say it is evil in disguise,

It could be dangerous because it can influence other people and could do the worse. Hypocrisy has its own notoriety; history tells it clearly form Nazi Germany to imperial Japan and even Mussolini of Italy

Had his own propaganda that influenced and moved people to do the worst.

    They abused the concept unity, and exploit people in the name of unity they killed innocent people. This absolutely in dictator's playbook it is an old powerplay and it still effective even on this day

of the Information age and Artificial Intelligence and there is no excuse to be ignorant with this antic-human-manipulation that has been used for ages. We have seen the worst human of human behavior

In 1940's they thought human attained the highest form of civilization and ethics and they still did barbaric things, and I come think in my lifetime I might see we could say worst human behavior than the world war 2

, even if it is not in my lifetime there still a chance to a major war or a worst human catastrophe happening. 

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It has been 8 months since Tatay's passing, and yet it is still painful, I never had this kind of pain in my entire human existence It still pains me whenever I went to his room. The familiar smell is still there those words -- reminders scribble on the walls, those notes the trace of his existence, I cannot clean them up I cannot throw away those things I formely recognized them as garbage but now I can see them as treasure those words written all over the place. I realized now that I was not ready, I was not ready for him to leave us. Everyday I think about him. Maybe because guilts and regrets I feel. Everything is not the same. I never had this kindof strange and very unfamiliar feeling, everything is not the same 06-20-2025 I think I have read this somewhere...you will die, everyone you know will die that's the uncomfortable truth of life. Pain is unevitable it will always be there with you, it lives with you, it dies with you. About that blogger thing I am worried I've totally lost access. I don't know if I ever regain access and write again. I took it down around 2015, because I felt so cringe because it is so cliche and rantful no resolution. I think those are the greatest thoughts I have written, no bars, unhinged, full of myself and most important of all--sincere. The authenticity is so real.. I started online blogging around 2005. I was fan of Bob Ong back then. Bob Ong is my gateway to read other books other author. I read ,"All I wanted to know is what I learned in Kindergarten" by Robert Fulgrum. It opens my eyes the important of reading and writting. In my school days I am not good in writting even a simple essay I struggled. I could not write anything because I could not b Evil exists! You cannot get rid of evil. History tells it happened before and it will happen all over again. It is naive to expect that someone will do good in you by default. It is safe to say that you should be weary all the time. You should not get off you guard down Nothing more scary than a person is deluded to himself and justify all his evil doings. Yes, it is true morality is subjetive, but there are things in the world that objectively evil. 

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A Glimpse Of A Past

Ted just graduate in high school in 1959in Grinhar
or Los Baños High School

He was the one of they called Honor roll
because our education system heavily influence by American Education
it is a competitive and they invented the valedictorian and salutatorian and those
latin honors that does not exist from they origin Europe. Some of his batchmates are notable
even in U.S. on their chosen profession

his motto in his year book: "There is nothing impossible under the heat of the sun"

and back then he wanted to join Philippine Air Force

06-19-2025
It has been 8 months since Tatay's passing, and yet it is still painful, I never had this kind of pain in my entire human existence
It still pains me whenever I went to his room. The familiar smell is still there those words -- reminders scribble on the walls, those notes the trace of his existence, I cannot clean them up I cannot throw away those things I formely recognized them as garbage but now I can see them
as treasure those words written all over the place. I realized now that I was
not ready, I was not ready for him to leave us. Everyday I think about him.
Maybe because guilts and regrets I feel. Everything is not the same. I never had this kind of strange and very unfamiliar feeling, everything is not the same

06-20-2025
I think I have read this somewhere...you will die, everyone you know will die
that's the uncomfortable truth of life.

Pain is inevitable it will always be there with you, it lives with you, it dies with you.

About that blogger thing I am worried I've totally lost access. I don't know
if I ever regain access and write again. I took it down around 2015, because
I felt so cringe because it is so cliché and full of rants with no resolution.

I think those are the greatest thoughts I have written, no bars,
unhinged, full of myself and most important of all--sincere. The authenticity is so real..

I started online blogging around 2005. I was fan of Bob Ong back then.
Bob Ong is my gateway to read other books other author. I read ,"All I wanted to know is what I learned in Kindergarten" by Robert Fulgrum.

It opens my eyes the important of reading and writing. In my school days I am not good in writing even a simple essay I struggled. I could not write anything because I could not b

Evil exists!
You cannot get rid of evil. History tells it happened before and it will happen all over again. It is naïve to expect that someone will do good
in you by default. It is safe to say that you should be weary all the time. You should not get off you guard down
Nothing more scary than a person is deluded to himself and justify all his evil doings. Yes, it is true morality is subjective, but there are things in the
world that objectively evil.
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Cockli,GPG and MUTT

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How to set up cock.li email in MUTT mail with GPG
This E-mail server is a little bit controversial, out of curiosity I made an email
account. Before they offered Webmail but not anymore, You could use MS Outlook mail client
for now besides MUTT.

Below is the configuration of MUTT I set up in BSD:
############################
#Filename: ~/.muttrc
#
# About User
set from = "youmailname@cock.li"
set realname = "Your Name"
set certificate_file=~/.mutt/certificates
#plaintext_auth = yes
#set smtp_authenticators="plain"
#set ssl_starttls=true
# My credentials
set smtp_url = "smtps://yourmailname@cock.li@mail.cock.li:465"
set smtp_pass = "yourpassword"
set imap_user = "yourmailname@cock.li"
set imap_pass = "yourpassword"

# My mailboxes
set folder = "imaps://mail.cock.li:993"
set spoolfile = "+INBOX"


# Where to put the stuff
set header_cache = "~/.mutt/cache/headers"
set message_cachedir = "~/.mutt/cache/bodies"
set certificate_file = "~/.mutt/certificates"

# Etc
set mail_check = 30
set move = no
set imap_keepalive = 900
set sort = threads
set editor = "vim"

# GnuPG bootstrap
source ~/.mutt/gpg.rc

############
#GPG CONFIG#
############

set crypt_use_gpgme = yes
set pgp_use_gpg_agent = yes
set pgp_sign_as = 0xDEADBEE5
set crypt_autosign = yes

#Encrypt replies to PGP emails by default

set crypt_replyencrypt = yes

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