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It has been 8 months since Tatay's passing, and yet it is still painful, I never had this kind of pain in my entire human existence It still pains me whenever I went to his room. The familiar smell is still there those words -- reminders scribble on the walls, those notes the trace of his existence, I cannot clean them up I cannot throw away those things I formely recognized them as garbage but now I can see them as treasure those words written all over the place. I realized now that I was not ready, I was not ready for him to leave us. Everyday I think about him. Maybe because guilts and regrets I feel. Everything is not the same. I never had this kindof strange and very unfamiliar feeling, everything is not the same 06-20-2025 I think I have read this somewhere...you will die, everyone you know will die that's the uncomfortable truth of life. Pain is unevitable it will always be there with you, it lives with you, it dies with you. About that blogger thing I am worried I've totally lost access. I don't know if I ever regain access and write again. I took it down around 2015, because I felt so cringe because it is so cliche and rantful no resolution. I think those are the greatest thoughts I have written, no bars, unhinged, full of myself and most important of all--sincere. The authenticity is so real.. I started online blogging around 2005. I was fan of Bob Ong back then. Bob Ong is my gateway to read other books other author. I read ,"All I wanted to know is what I learned in Kindergarten" by Robert Fulgrum. It opens my eyes the important of reading and writting. In my school days I am not good in writting even a simple essay I struggled. I could not write anything because I could not b Evil exists! You cannot get rid of evil. History tells it happened before and it will happen all over again. It is naive to expect that someone will do good in you by default. It is safe to say that you should be weary all the time. You should not get off you guard down Nothing more scary than a person is deluded to himself and justify all his evil doings. Yes, it is true morality is subjetive, but there are things in the world that objectively evil. 

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A Glimpse Of A Past

Ted just graduate in high school in 1959in Grinhar
or Los Baños High School

He was the one of they called Honor roll
because our education system heavily influence by American Education
it is a competitive and they invented the valedictorian and salutatorian and those
latin honors that does not exist from they origin Europe. Some of his batchmates are notable
even in U.S. on their chosen profession

his motto in his year book: "There is nothing impossible under the heat of the sun"

and back then he wanted to join Philippine Air Force

06-19-2025
It has been 8 months since Tatay's passing, and yet it is still painful, I never had this kind of pain in my entire human existence
It still pains me whenever I went to his room. The familiar smell is still there those words -- reminders scribble on the walls, those notes the trace of his existence, I cannot clean them up I cannot throw away those things I formely recognized them as garbage but now I can see them
as treasure those words written all over the place. I realized now that I was
not ready, I was not ready for him to leave us. Everyday I think about him.
Maybe because guilts and regrets I feel. Everything is not the same. I never had this kind of strange and very unfamiliar feeling, everything is not the same

06-20-2025
I think I have read this somewhere...you will die, everyone you know will die
that's the uncomfortable truth of life.

Pain is inevitable it will always be there with you, it lives with you, it dies with you.

About that blogger thing I am worried I've totally lost access. I don't know
if I ever regain access and write again. I took it down around 2015, because
I felt so cringe because it is so cliché and full of rants with no resolution.

I think those are the greatest thoughts I have written, no bars,
unhinged, full of myself and most important of all--sincere. The authenticity is so real..

I started online blogging around 2005. I was fan of Bob Ong back then.
Bob Ong is my gateway to read other books other author. I read ,"All I wanted to know is what I learned in Kindergarten" by Robert Fulgrum.

It opens my eyes the important of reading and writing. In my school days I am not good in writing even a simple essay I struggled. I could not write anything because I could not b

Evil exists!
You cannot get rid of evil. History tells it happened before and it will happen all over again. It is naïve to expect that someone will do good
in you by default. It is safe to say that you should be weary all the time. You should not get off you guard down
Nothing more scary than a person is deluded to himself and justify all his evil doings. Yes, it is true morality is subjective, but there are things in the
world that objectively evil.
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Cockli,GPG and MUTT

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How to set up cock.li email in MUTT mail with GPG
This E-mail server is a little bit controversial, out of curiosity I made an email
account. Before they offered Webmail but not anymore, You could use MS Outlook mail client
for now besides MUTT.

Below is the configuration of MUTT I set up in BSD:
############################
#Filename: ~/.muttrc
#
# About User
set from = "youmailname@cock.li"
set realname = "Your Name"
set certificate_file=~/.mutt/certificates
#plaintext_auth = yes
#set smtp_authenticators="plain"
#set ssl_starttls=true
# My credentials
set smtp_url = "smtps://yourmailname@cock.li@mail.cock.li:465"
set smtp_pass = "yourpassword"
set imap_user = "yourmailname@cock.li"
set imap_pass = "yourpassword"

# My mailboxes
set folder = "imaps://mail.cock.li:993"
set spoolfile = "+INBOX"


# Where to put the stuff
set header_cache = "~/.mutt/cache/headers"
set message_cachedir = "~/.mutt/cache/bodies"
set certificate_file = "~/.mutt/certificates"

# Etc
set mail_check = 30
set move = no
set imap_keepalive = 900
set sort = threads
set editor = "vim"

# GnuPG bootstrap
source ~/.mutt/gpg.rc

############
#GPG CONFIG#
############

set crypt_use_gpgme = yes
set pgp_use_gpg_agent = yes
set pgp_sign_as = 0xDEADBEE5
set crypt_autosign = yes

#Encrypt replies to PGP emails by default

set crypt_replyencrypt = yes

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Codes myteriously gone

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/*
file_name :main.rs
author : a.e.
comment : Line of codes myteriously gone I didn't know how did that
happened "io::stdout().flush();". It just puzzled I couldn't
` figure it out, what the hell is wrong with RUST?
*/
extern crate rand;
use std::io;
use std::io::Write;
use rand::Rng;
use std::cmp::Ordering;
fn main()
{
println!("Guess the number between 1-2048, You have 10 chances to guess it:");
println!("Please enter your guess:");
let secret_number = rand::thread_rng().gen_range(1,2048);
let mut lifecount = 11;

loop{
let mut guess = String::new();
lifecount -= 1;
println!("LIFE:{}",lifecount);

if lifecount == 0 {
println!("GAME OVER, BRO! The secret number is {}",secret_number);
break;
}
print!("Your guess:{}",guess);
let _= io::stdout().flush();
io::stdin().read_line(&mut guess).expect("Failed to read line");

let guess: u32 = match guess.trim().parse(){
Ok(num) => num,
Err(_) => continue,
};


match guess.cmp(&secret_number){
Ordering::Less => println!("It's LOW"),
Ordering::Greater => println!("It's HIGH"),

Ordering::Equal => { println!("You are right! the secret number is {}",secret_number); break; }


}

// println!("The secret number is {}", secret_number);

}
}
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Learning To Unlearn

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Now I am trying to unlearn things, firstly the things
I learned that I thought was right, unlearn the bad habits of mine
unlearn the wrong way of playing guitar that I am so used to.
Trying to unlearn the bad temper and hostile response
albeit it is not my fault at all because some people
Trying to push your button, and treat you like a doormat
There is a lot of assholes out there! I should filter
my response to non-asshole people
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The Scribbles On The Wall

I have just taken this for granted,
those words must mean something to someone
who drew those words on the wall,
It looks like just rubbish done by a mad man,
a misunderstood one. Those words must mean something!
To someone with existential crisis it must mean something
He will cease to exist but those words will be there and
if someone take care of those words
it mean it will last more decades. Those words written
on the papers with poignant words of hopeless and
desperation This man must needed help,
but I choose misundestanding I didn't think twice I didn't think wise.
I have lacked in empathy, because I myself need
self-empathy, because this world is truly cruel
I need this hard solitary shell to protect myself,
as I wall myself with egoistic fortress and I could not see
if someone is outside needed my help, I forgot my old man,
I forgot my old man was literaly old.
Now he's gone, and those written materials became the
footprint of his existence. I say no more words about it
because it hurts.
Now I see more, I know more
I realized more things than before
and I felt sadder than before
I have this thousands of guilts of regrets
I don't know how to ease the pains.
Those scribble seems you want to know someone in the
future that you were there you existed,
you once live your life like those in caveman arts Death is unescapable truth
a very uncomfortable one, I think this is our reason for religion,
for gods the belief of after life, it console us, but is it
the truth?I don't know. Those concepts are truly enticing because it is an
advantage if you come to think of it but it is the TRUTH? I don't know

THE 32-BIT BUG

/****************************************************************************************************

 * date         :JUNE 28, 2025

 * author       :A.E.

 * prog_name    :FIBONACCI

 * 

 * filename:    :fibonacci.rs

 * 

 * comment      :   The CPU in a virtualization is so limited, my hardware has capability to do the

 *              task but the virualization limits the CPU speed and it takes forever to compute

 *              even the 40 Fibonacci sequence it is a large number but in this program I just

 *              u32 (unsigned 32-bit with range of 0-2,147,483,647) data type it has decent large 

 *              number capacity but in this modern day computing it is just piece of shit

 *              It gets error in 47TH Fibinacci sequence 'cause it reach its limit  you could

 *              change into 64-bit to accept larger number.

 *

 *              The 32-bit integer is the sole culprit that's why in year 2038 our cpu time must be

 *              fixed or else it will gets error because the unix time started counting seconds

 *              from January 1, 1971 and will last until January 19, 2038 that if there is  Y2K bug

 *              in year 200 there will be Y2K38 in 1938. There are a lots of system will be

 *              affected even the timestamps of some File System Existing today we have time but it

 *              will surely cost money, because of that. Even the old satellite will be affected we

 *              overlook those bug, and everything now is starting to migrate 64bit in system which

 *              people nowadays considered it overkill

 *

 *              And it is also the culprit that's why we even use all the IPv4 addresses in the world

 *              because it also tailored in a 32-bit data type system.

 *

 *              That why IPv6 is there can handle billions of hosts but it could be a problem for

 *              the people of future. Back then nobody thinks that 32-bit will never be enough.

 *              

 *              We are all thinking that 64-bit is enough but the future people I would like to

 *              thinkit will not be enough for them. Back in 1960's 5 MB (Megabytes) is insane size o

 *              f storage nobody back then think it will be full. But today a single picture taken from 

 *              a cellphone  camera can have a size of 20 Megabytes or more.

 *

 *

 * ***************************************************************************************************/

use std::io;

use std::io::Write;

fn fibonacci(n: u32) -> u32 {

   

    match n {

        0 => 1,

        1 => 1,

        _=> fibonacci(n-1) + fibonacci(n-2),

    }

}

fn main(){

    println!("Fibonacci generator");

    println!("Type \"quit\" to exit");

    loop{

        let mut n = String::new();

        print!("Enter positive integer: ");

       

        io::stdout().flush().unwrap(); 

        io::stdin().read_line(&mut n).expect("Failed to read Line");

        println!();

        

        if n.trim() == "quit" { break; }

        let n: u32 = match n.trim().parse() {

            Ok(num) => num,

            Err(_) => continue,

        };

        println!("{}", fibonacci(n));

    }

}

BSD BEAST

Trying to do something new to me

BACK TO OUTLOOK

I used this thing because we don't what the future brings I am trying
to back things up, because I have been over confident and lose important files
I use this when I still have time, beause windows 10 is fading

I SUCCESSFULLY INSTALL OPENBSD

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OPEN BSD
I was an avid fan of Debian Linux for years until the systemd ruined it. I have installed different linux distros for years.
It was all started when I learned about linux years ago, I started off with SlaxLinux I love its portablity running on live cd
or usb, until the sole developer abandoned this project because of lack of support I tweaked it on my own, I learned how to
compile source codes and build and install it in the system I did manual entry with it in boot menu of WindowsXP and I learned about
GRUB and had idea how it works. I also tried Fedora Linux, OpenSuse, Ubuntu (sucks that trying to be Windows and against the GNU Philosophy
it an "AMONG US" ---an impostor ),RHL,GNOME and ArchLinux. Because of systemd and curiosity I tried some more BSD/UNIX before I tried FREE BSD
for a short time I installed OPEN BSD before and add deskstop with it the customization is so hardcore I had to
modified files manually because OpenBSD is not a Desktop OS, but for server dudes. It was so slow when I add xfce and blackbox and
learned how to use startx and bgdm it is almost unusable I couldn't use firefox and vlc because it was a slow laptop so I quit

Until recently I learned how to use Virtual Machines and played around with OpenBSD and FREEBSD for longer time.
I use GHOSTBSD (forked from FreeBSD) with Genli and xfce Desktop environment and it was actually good.
Then installed FreeBSD without deskstop and OpenBSD with xorg desktop environment.

I have large repertoire of OS experience but we don't know what tommorow will bring in this technology, I just predicting
that computing will lean more in privacy and security. I just saw people immigrating to RUST programming with
the aim of security in memory to counter buffer overflow.Because of overshared of personal things in the internet
people will realized that their privacy is compromised.
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Playing around with RUST

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Now I am reading about RUST, I leaned some concept about its unique feature the Ownership and having no garbage collector unlike
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so it can counter buffer overflow
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Playing with Rust

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so it can counter buffer overflow
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VIBE CODING RUST

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extern crate rand;
use std::io;
use rand::Rng;
fn main()
{
println!("Guess the number:");
println!("Please enter your guess:");
let secret_number = rand::thread_rng().gen_range(1,101);
println!("The secret number is {}", secret_number);
let mut guess = String::new();
io::stdin().read_line(&mut guess).expect("Failed to read line");
println!("Your guess:{}",guess);
}
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It's been a while since I tried to learn this rusty computer language.It is facist but it has discipline It counters buffer overflow. They
said it is the safest programming language today. But a newbie I have a lot of things to learn about it. I am still leaning the ropes.:

war in the East = War on the west

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WAR ON THE EAST = WAR ON THE WEST

THE MISSILE FIGHT BETWEEN ISRAEL AND IRAN COULD LEAD TO A BIGGER WAR.It has
been a week since they start bomb each other and nobody knows when it would
stop this is their biggest escalation so far and could lead to more severe fight
between and could lead to a total war. Now the Israel experiencing what Palestine
experiencing. They are sworn enemies and this is very uncertain time for them for
peace, they are commited to destroy each other.
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UNIX VS DOS

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THE TEXT WARS BETWEEN UNIX AND DOS
CR and LF are control characters, respectively coded 0x0D (13 decimal) and 0x0A (10 decimal)
Even you send or post your file in plain text it will never be the same once it was crtl+a, ctrl+c and ctrl+v the file,
I am trying to say even if you tried to copy paste text with your mouse it will never be the same if you use incompatible
operating system. In Unix system it is only LEFT-FEED but in windows system is Carriage Return + Left feed. It change the
data it will never be the same checksum. That's why it is important you know about it if you sent pgp key and
the reciepient just neglectfully copy paste it with mouse it will be different file even you read it there is no
difference you should have an editor that has feature that can read white space so you would know the
difference.
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THE TEXT WARS BETWEEN UNIX AND DOS
CR and LF are control characters, respectively coded 0x0D (13 decimal) and 0x0A (10 decimal)
Even you send or post your file in plain text it will never be the same once it was crtl+a, ctrl+c and ctrl+v the file,
I am trying to say even if you tried to copy paste text with your mouse it will never be the same if you use incompatible
operating system. In Unix system it is only LEFT-FEED but in windows system is Carriage Return + Left feed. It change the
data it will never be the same checksum. That's why it is important you know about it if you sent pgp key and
the reciepient just neglectfully copy paste it with mouse it will be different file even you read it there is no
difference you should have an editor that has feature that can read white space so you would know the
difference.

THE TEXT WARS BETWEEN UNIX AND DOS, actually the white space

-----BEGIN PGP SIGNED MESSAGE-----
Hash: SHA512



THE TEXT WARS BETWEEN UNIX AND DOS
CR and LF are control characters, respectively coded 0x0D (13 decimal) and 0x0A (10 decimal)
Even you send or post your file in plain text it will never be the same once it was crtl+a, ctrl+c and ctrl+v the file,
I am trying to say even if you tried to copy paste text with your mouse it will never be the same if you use incompatible
operating system. In Unix system it is only LEFT-FEED but in windows system is Carriage Return + Left feed. It change the
data it will never be the same checksum. That's why it is important you know about it if you sent pgp key and
the reciepient just neglectfully copy paste it with mouse it will be different file even you read it there is no
difference you should have an editor that has feature that can read white space so you would know the
difference.
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iHUEARYKAB0WIQRzfPoL23PrstrYzNYwsSr5Sej4YwUCaFaRoAAKCRAwsSr5Sej4
YxFUAQCiSdjz2/ABD/Nk/wVaJBhqw+qRvBpXUlVWMSuekEg3KAD6Al3V9xKKuynx
3kicEyIEJ94hrekJ5u5yNOAdz/aA8wM=
=sfsx
-----END PGP SIGNATURE-----
THE TEXT WARS BETWEEN UNIX AND DOS
CR and LF are control characters, respectively coded 0x0D (13 decimal) and 0x0A (10 decimal)
Even you send or post your file in plain text it will never be the same once it was crtl+a, ctrl+c and ctrl+v the file,
I am trying to say even if you tried to copy paste text with your mouse it will never be the same if you use incompatible
operating system. In Unix system it is only LEFT-FEED but in windows system is Carriage Return + Left feed. It change the
data it will never be the same checksum. That's why it is important you know about it if you sent pgp key and
the reciepient just neglectfully copy paste it with mouse it will be different file even you read it there is no
difference you should have an editor that has feature that can read white space so you would know the
difference.

EVIL EXISTS

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Evil exists!
You cannot get rid of evil. History tells it happened before and it will happen all over again. It is naive to expect that someone will do good
in you by default. It is safe to say that you should be weary all the time. You should not get off you guard down, there is nothing more scary than a person is
deluded to himself and justify all his evil doings. Yes, it is true morality is subjetive, but there are things in theworld that objectively evil.
The temperament of human is complicated, sometimes you would never know from a glimpse but time will tell if someone is evil or not.
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Y0NkAP42PERHbOxeV5qmGMh0suuJ4wHBhCChbJSIlb3wESmMUgD9FvihkP2dBRw8
05BG/pqZ02GV7wqkYq5ZfTZ71T+OYgE=
=JWOh
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Anyways

06-19-2025
It has been 8 months since Tatay's passing, and yet it is still painful, I never had this kind of pain in my entire human existence
It still pains me whenever I went to his room. The familiar smell is still there those words -- reminders scribble on the walls, those notes the trace of his existence, I cannot clean them up I cannot throw away those things I formely recognized them as garbage but now I can see them
as treasure those words written all over the place. I realized now that I was
not ready, I was not ready for him to leave us. Everyday I think about him.
Maybe because guilts and regrets I feel. Everything is not the same. I never had this kindof strange and very unfamiliar feeling, everything is not the same

06-20-2025
I think I have read this somewhere...you will die, everyone you know will die
that's the uncomfortable truth of life.

Pain is unevitable it will always be there with you, it lives with you, it dies with you.

About that blogger thing I am worried I've totally lost access. I don't know
if I ever regain access and write again. I took it down around 2015, because
I felt so cringe because it is so cliche and rantful no resolution.

I think those are the greatest thoughts I have written, no bars,
unhinged, full of myself and most important of all--sincere. The authenticity is so real..

I started online blogging around 2005. I was fan of Bob Ong back then.
Bob Ong is my gateway to read other books other author. I read ,"All I wanted to know is what I learned in Kindergarten" by Robert Fulgrum.

It opens my eyes the important of reading and writting. In my school days I am not good in writting even a simple essay I struggled. I could not write anything because I could not be truthful.

Errata 4

Error(s) will always be there. No matter how old you are, how long you've been writing it is always there. Actually English spelling is not that sensical